Diary entry: March 8, 2017 – My blog is up! Thank you, Divi!
The mission to create my blog began in November 2016. The first two weeks of this quest were an absolute pain. I had no idea which way to go. I never made a web page in my life. With no previous experience, I had no clue where to start. The fact that I have little money left and no job kept me from paying somebody to complete this task. I was lost and afraid in the terrifying world of internet technology.
Google helped me a lot but it can also be extremely confusing. There are a ton of different perspectives on how a blog should look like and what tools you should use. After two weeks I began to understand how some of the puzzle pieces were fitting but I still had a lot of issues to take care of. The biggest of them was my web design. Without any coding skills, I was forced to use plug-ins that other people created. This is a great way of getting around a problem but it narrows you down to what the developer of the plug-in wants to give you.
There are premium tools that offer a lot of freedom but I couldn’t afford most of them. Eventually, I was glad to discover that there are also free tools for the poorest of us but little I knew that they are terrible. The first blog I made was garbage. It was giving me a nauseating sensation when I looked at it. This first web page was not worthy of my writing. After a while of working in these conditions, I gave up.
Negative thoughts were taking over me and I decided to put my blog on hold. December was here now and I just wanted to spend some time with my family. I didn’t need any more stress. It was the first Christmas as a vegetarian so I decided to learn how to cook without using animal products. I spent the entire month in the kitchen experimenting with all sorts of healthy and delicious recipes. The Christmas table was filled with my pies, crackers and other vegetarian dishes.
My journey as a writer that wants to share his journal with the world was still going on but I had my doubts. I started off as an engineer that quit his job for something that he never did in his entire life. I don’t have the money nor the knowledge to back me up. My vision of one day grabbing everything that I desire in life was the only thing that kept me going. It proved to be just enough in the end.
This idea that was planted in my head pushed me forward until I found new hope. Because I held on to what was dear to me I managed to meet new people that gave me inspiration. They all told me “Keep going because you are doing the right thing!”. I couldn’t help it but listen. The second attempt to make a blog began. It was February this time and the harsh cold weather favored my work. I had no desire to go outside and freeze to death.
In my ambition to not spend any money, I kept searching for and used free tools. The second web page I did was better, but while I was trying to tweak it the thing crashed and I was unable to salvage anything from it. I honestly don’t know what happened. The third attempt to make a blog was getting me closer to what I wanted, but without any knowledge of internet coding I got stuck at some point and I was unable to continue my work. The damned tools I was using didn’t have some features that were crucial for my design. After one month of working, I failed again.
I began screaming and throwing punches in the air. Life seemed so unfair at this point. I got on Facebook with the need to chat with a friend and unload my pain. Out of nowhere, this advertisement popped up. A dude with long hair and sleepy eyes was talking to me about things that I needed. The moment I saw him I knew he was my man. He was advertising a package which contains a multitude of fully customizable web page themes, a cutting edge front page builder, a social media sharing app, support for the times when I can’t handle the situation on my own and some other things. He had everything I needed for only 80 dollars. The company selling this is called Elegant Themes and is responsible for developing the Divi Theme and builder that I used. I grabbed the deal without hesitation and I wasn’t disappointed. With the experience I previously gained and my shiny new tools, I was finally able to build the ship that will carry me towards my dreams. I can finally look with pride at my creation.
Once again, life gave me a kick in the balls and a pat on the back. When I was down, it gave me what I needed to get back up. I guess this is the process of learning. Everything that happened to me made me realize that I can never lose. I either win or I learn. I have everything I need to make my dream come true but I fail at understanding it sometimes. The whole idea of feeling like a millionaire without being one implies acknowledging what you have and making the best of it.
The dear diary of, Describe
The more we share, the more we have!
From time to time we find a cause that is worth fighting for. If that particular thing brings value to us and the world we believe in, then it’s a pity to let it die. Whatever sends a buzz up our spine, moves and determines us to act, it’s worth investing in. I found my cause and I need help to keep going…