January, 2017

Diary entry: January 1, 2016 – Other people are stages

The holidays came and past in a blink. They tired me more than one month of work in the city. I do not know how other families spend their time together in this period, but mine has a very special ritual when it comes to getting close. The gathering spot for everybody...
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Diary entry: January 10, 2017 – The winter I love

I said my farewells to my grandparents, thanked them for their kindness and hoped on the train. They waved at me with tears in their eyes. I will miss them but I have to move on. A couple of days ago I arrived at my new residence. I will be living with my father until...
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Diary entry: January 19, 2017 – Master Miyagi

I feel like I became my own master Miyagi. I am putting myself to work in every single aspect of my life. I practice emotional control through deep introspection and journaling, physical training and a strict dietary regime that is supposed to help me heal the damage...
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Diary entry: January 28, 2017 – I stopped feeding other people’s addictions

Because I learned something new, something “healthy”, I live under the impression that I am entitled to save lives now.  For an entire year, I studied about how to eat healthy and prevent diseases. I do believe that my research is correct, but it turned me into a...
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February, 2017

Diary entry: February 8, 2017 – Ally Will’s Son

A few days ago I met another one of those people that inspire me. I began my conversation with this wonderful being thanks to a massive protest that is going on in Romania right now. The government did some fishy things and the population got outraged. A friend of...
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Diary entry: February 13, 2017 – The well of creation

We all have this “well of creation” inside of us, a spark that helps us build our world. As I uncovered this about myself and understood the power that it brings, I began to question why we live in so much pain. The thing that led me to an answer was the desire to...
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Diary entry: February 14, 2017 – Conversation with a smoker

Smoker: “Describe, I’ve been thinking about it and I really want to stop smoking…” Me: “Why do you want to stop?” Smoker: “Well, I’m always wasting money on cigarettes and I would really need a boost to my health. My energy levels have been dropping lately. The...
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Diary entry: February 23, 2017 – I will find you

I am a perfectionist living in a fantasy world. Over the years I gathered all this information about how my world should be, but I never allowed myself to experiment with my project. I dream and reject everything that has nothing to do with my Truth. My immune system...
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Diary entry: February 27, 2017 – Us dreamers

The physical form of the last puzzle piece presented itself. By now I had an idea why I am writing but I never met a person that actually asked for my work. A distant friend of mine called me today and told me that I am the only person in the world that could help...
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March, 2017

Diary entry: March 3, 2017 – The birdman

Last month I spent my time mostly indoors. I’m back to working on my blog again. I think I’m near to publishing my journal. My hair and beard are all messed up, I have black circles under my eyes and I’ve been losing weight like crazy. I heard people laughing at the...
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Diary entry: March 8, 2017 – My blog is up! Thank you, Divi!

The mission to create my blog began in November 2016. The first two weeks of this quest were an absolute pain. I had no idea which way to go. I never made a web page in my life. With no previous experience, I had no clue where to start. The fact that I have little...
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Diary entry: March 17, 2017 – New motivation

Ever since the beginning of February, I didn't go out that much. I moved my bones here and there to get some things done, but I mostly stayed indoors. The weather was awful and I want to make this blog work. Everywhere I go I can't get it out of my mind. Like I...
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Diary entry: March 24, 2017 – Chasing goals

I’ve been rushing things so much lately. In this constant battle to get my blog out of anonymity, I lost touch with myself again. My newfound freedom is being traded for hours spent in front of my laptop. In my obsession, I forgot my initial goals. I need to remind...
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Diary entry: March 26, 2017 – Letter to my Father

I am sorry, Father! I know how much I wronged You. I was supposed to be Your proud work but look at how I twisted myself! I am just a remnant of my former glory. My ambitions led me away from You. In my attempt to gain power I sacrificed everything. I destroyed this...
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April, 2017

Diary entry: April 2, 2017 – My path

These last couple of days I felt drained. The technical issues of my blog are driving me insane sometimes. I enjoy writing but when I began thinking about making a blog, it never crossed my mind that I will have to face so many details. I’m not complaining, but...
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Diary entry: April 15, 2017 – The philosophy of success

Today Lore called me while I was taking a walk through the forest. It was so good to hear from her again. She has the voice of a dreamy person. I always found it enchanting to listen to her. We exchanged a lot of ideas over a few hours. The conversation was long and...
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Diary entry: April 17, 2017 – The story of my death

I don’t remember the exact day but it happened in March 2016. I was meddling with things I had no idea about. My life was a mess and I was searching for a way out. Back then, I didn’t care about the cost even if it meant that it would kill me. The promise of a moment...
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