August, 2016

Diary entry: August 1, 2016 – A dream to remember

This is how I understood that life has a greater meaning. I was able to tune into new emotions that placed me on the path of evolution. From here on I dedicated my life to finding happiness.

Diary entry: August 8, 2016 – Satisfying my needs

After finally understanding that life shouldn’t be lived in any other way but happy, I had to make a plan towards permanently achieving this glorifying feeling. I began with identifying my needs and making a plan to satisfy them.

Diary entry: August 10, 2016 – The Story of Describe

The plan to quit my job was set in place. I wasn’t really sure what I would do afterward, but I was comforted by the thought that I will finally be able to take more care of myself. My decision was inspired by some beautiful events that happened not long ago. Couple them with the mind expanding dream I had, and there was no way of turning me back.

Diary entry: August 12, 2016 – I refuse to die

I had a conversation with a friend. He was trying to get inside my head and understand all the crazy decisions I took in the last couple of days. I explained to him why I need to continue.

Diary entry: August 14, 2016 – Vacation days

Until the end of the month, I will be on vacation. This will give me the opportunity to really think about what I want to do and relax a little bit.

Diary entry: August 15, 2016 – Alone but not quite so

My decision to go on vacation alone is the best one I took in years, next to quitting my job. I have to admit though, at first I was a little bit concerned that I might feel lonely, but boy I was wrong! I made a lot of friends and met a lot of interesting people.

Diary entry: August 16, 2016 – Naked

This was the perfect time to go a little bit crazy. I partied day in and day out and I also took the liberty to try something new. All of it for the science!

Diary entry: August 18, 2016 – Lore

Last night I met one of the most beautiful human beings. Her name is Lore. I have a good feeling about her.

Diary entry: August 22, 2016 – The people I want

The experiences I had in the last couple of days and the encounter with Lore gave me an inestimable insight. While I grew up I never really came to understand social dynamics and how people should interact with one another. I am glad to say that after a long time I finally discovered that missing piece.

Diary entry: August 23, 2016 – Goodbye

After spending some beautiful time together, I had to say goodbye to Lore. I am headed back to Bucharest and she is departing for England. I feel a bit sad to say goodbye. Not only to her but to the seaside as well. On the bright side, I am leaving with a lot of clarifications regarding my own life. In the time I spent here, I met a guy that gave me one of the missing puzzle pieces. I KNOW WHAT I HAVE TO DO AFTER I WILL QUIT MY JOB!

September, 2016

Diary entry: September 22, 2016 – Focus

I always blamed myself for feeling out of place. As I grew up, my mind was constantly filled with stories and reaching for the stars. Many times I couldn’t focus on the present moment because I used to feel safer inside my own thoughts. This usually gave me the appearance of a drowsy person. Nowadays I understand the cause of my sleepiness and how I actually used it as a self-defense mechanism.

Diary entry: September 23, 2016 – The shadows of education

I was a man of my word and I kept pushing towards achieving my freedom. On this day I ended my master’s degree and I vocalized my frustration towards the educational system. Nobody deserves to go through such pain just to gain a good for nothing piece of paper.

Diary entry: September 25, 2016 – My dream place

To get motivated on my journey I had to set some objectives. I want to create income as a writer, but I don’t want to stop at just being able to eat. If you ask life for more resources than you can consume, might as well give an explanation of how you will use them. In my mind, I can see my dream place and I am asking life to give me what I need to build it.

Diary entry: September 27, 2016 – Everybody wants me to win

Sometimes people just want to help us but not the way we expect them to. In this article, I talk about my life among those who are unhappy enough with their lives that they want to make everybody else miserable too. I learned that anybody can mock you if you don’t own what you’re doing.

October, 2016

Diary entry: October 3, 2016 – The hobo rapist

I always understood that human beings are disconnected from each other but today I fathomed it at a deeper level. My awkward encounters made it clear.

Diary entry: October 7, 2016 – A zombie no more

The great day finally happened! I faced my boss and I quit my job. But no matter how satisfying this felt, I am pretty sure that a lot of scars will still linger on. On the bright side, pain comes with a lot of lessons to be learned.

Diary entry: October 8, 2016 – Born an original

Today I made a recap of everything that impacted my life in a positive manner and determined me to take a decision towards improving my life. I explain how the people I met changed my views upon freedom, love, and expression of self. I did it because by coming closer to who I am, I learn how to externalize my originality.

Diary entry: October 10, 2016 – Rehab

With my job and all the other distractions out of the way, I understood the fact that I must take my mission seriously now. Easier said than done since I had a lot of vices that I was battling with. They were draining the little money I had left so I had to do something about it. I decided to go and live with my grandparents in the countryside until my head comes clean. Here I will able to live a healthy life and focus exclusively on building my blog.

Diary entry: October 12, 2016 – Life is simple

Inside the village, life is more direct. It feels like you have a more profound connection with what you have to do. Today was an omen for what life is supposed to be. I personally don’t need any complications anymore. I am doing this in loving memory of simpler times.

Diary entry: October 13, 2016 – Fresh air, breakfast and work

Nothing compares with a hard day’s work! After a beautiful breakfast on the river bank, I grabbed my axe and I chopped wood until evening. This day healed my soul. In the simplicity of things, I found myself.

Diary entry: October 14, 2016 – Goodbye old friend

In certain beliefs, hair holds great meaning. It’s said that it can actually hold in memories. If this is true, I want to let go of whatever past I had. Not because I do not accept it, but because it’s not who I am anymore. I want to be reborn here.

Diary entry: October 16, 2016 – Loneliness of the mind

My family is concerned about me. All my decisions came out of the blue and caught them off guard. I took my time to explain everything to them but I feel like they can’t really comprehend what I am trying to do. This day really stirred up an internal battle. The process of letting go is harder when people keep reminding you of who you were. When people have their own image of what success means, it’s hard for them to understand your picture.

Diary entry: October 20, 2016 – Can you see what I see?

I had a dream that made me feel lonely. The more I advance on this quest of mine, the more I have to leave more people behind. I have fate though, that the right people are searching for me, as I am searching for them.

Diary entry: October 22, 2016 – Don’t hide yourself

I used to be afraid of telling people that I want to become a writer. The wrong opinions can be devastating at times. When you try to do something new, you can’t afford to be dragged down by a naysayer. This shut me off from everybody and I began to feel secluded. It is time to allow the right people back in.

Diary entry: October 31, 2016 – A story in a cup of tea

There is nothing more beautiful than some old-fashioned shoveling on a sunny day. Because I dared to quit my job I was able to experience that and also bond with my grandfather while we worked side by side.

November, 2016

Diary entry: Novermber 1, 2016 – Grow walnuts, grow!

Today was a beautiful day! I had the opportunity to plant a lot of walnuts and bask in the sunlight. As I shoveled earth over the roots, I also left a dream in there that I want to see grow. I made a step towards completing one of my objectives. At the end of the day, I came up with a mind expanding conclusion about the world we could live in.

Diary entry: November 6, 2016 – Boring habits make my personality

In order to live a more efficient life, I had to give up on a lot of things and also adopt new habits. My pursuit of happiness led me on some strange paths for some. The only way you can change your life is by changing yourself.

Diary entry: November 8, 2016 – How to make a blog

Until this point, I just kept writing and researching the subjects that will make me a better person. I figured I will first have to build a compelling story before posting it on a blog. Today the time came to deal with the technical issues. After all, this is one of the key elements in what I am trying to do. My story needs to get out there.

Diary entry: November 11, 2016 – The philosophy of making a blog

Creating a blog with no previous knowledge on how to do so, proves to be more difficult than I thought. The hardest part about it is my stubbornness to make everything perfect. For a while, I failed to understand that I have to be contempt with whatever I can get done. The whole point of me being here is simplicity and I was making my life hard by complicating it with all sorts of unreachable ideas.

Diary entry: November 12, 2016 – The purpose of life

Ever since I was a child people pestered me with finding a “purpose”, but I never knew how to do that. The entire concept felt like a unicorn that only those who are lucky enough can benefit from it. Today was the day when I finally managed to explain to myself what a purpose is and how to get one.

Diary entry: November 15, 2016 – How I became wealthy

Everybody is rich, we just fail to see it. Back in the day, I was trying to live my dream by going through an intermediary. I worked in jobs and did everything I disliked because I believed money is what I needed in order to feel free. Nowadays, I have everything I always wanted and I’m doing what I love.

Diary entry: November 18, 2016 – How I meditate

My goal is to achieve a meditative state at any given time, not just by standing in a certain position. I do so by simplifying my life and by solving the underlying problems of any given addiction.

December, 2016

Diary entry: December 1, 2016 – Honesty

I believe that one of the keys to my success is honesty. Everything is based on how honest I am to myself. This value allows me to see through all the lies that have been planted in my heart and let go of them no matter how much I want to oppose it. Honesty is my psychiatrist and is answering all my questions.

Diary entry: December 11, 2016 – The master chemist

I believe that our bodily chemistry is the key to unlocking our full potential. By regulating our internal processes we can achieve a more balanced state of mind. The entire purpose of doing it is to find happiness from within. Also, by understanding how our body works, we can break all negative habits. This way we can take back our power and control over our lives.

Diary entry: December 15, 2016 – I define my life

When I lived in the city and I was preoccupied with city stuff, I had no clear definition of anything. I was uneducated and always on a rush. This never gave me the opportunity to sit back and reflect upon things. Nowadays I feel focused and I contemplate the important aspects of life.

Diary entry: December 20, 2016 – Getting out of hell

I refuse to get mutilated by the will of others. I will become who I want to be. I will reassemble the parts that were chopped off of me and I will become whole again. I want to live and to own my weirdness. I want to create effortlessly and not be stuck on some masterpiece. I have my own signature.

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